Going backwards…

We had our first ultrasound on October 5th! As exciting as it was to see the little baby and hear the heartbeat (176 BMP), I had the wind taken out of my sails when I was informed that I was not 12w2d pregnant like I thought I was and I was only 10w3d. All I could do while staring at that screen after she said that was think over and over in my head, “It’s not possible. It’s not possible.” And after we left the room I told that to Gage over and over. All I could think about was, “There is no possible way that I’m going to be pregnant for two additional weeks. I just lived through those weeks. I’m not going backwards!”

The date of my period is not inaccurate. I know exactly when it started. And to put it bluntly, we only had one oops moment and I know exactly when that was as well. Those two dates would put my due date at exactly April 16th like I originally thought. So there is NO way it could be possible. I told my midwife this and she didn’t seem concerned. She said sperm lives longer than we think. And implantation could take up to a week. I guess with all that combined, it’s possible that I’m not as pregnant as I thought I was. Still disheartening, but possible. I guess. So until further notice, my due date is April 29th.

Here is the little guy/gal!